Twilight, Midnight, Sunlight was conceived during a time of darkness. In my darkest times, I wrote. I wrote when I couldn’t sleep, when I felt enraged, when I felt depressed, when I felt alone and when I prayed for something more. I once used to pray for death but as I continued writing, and thus dealing with my circumstances, I started praying for a reason to live.
Through writing, I slowly traversed through the blackness inside of me – my Midnight Zone, what I know now as depression, is something I’ve grown to accept as a part of me. I used to be so frightened of it and what it could mean – the person I could become because of it. I was afraid of losing control. I was afraid of losing myself. I was afraid to be happy because I knew that it was there – I felt like my happiness was temporary and that the higher I was, the more painful the fall.
I was so afraid of it that I forgot to live.
Twilight, Midnight, Sunlight is more than just a book to me – it is a reminder to myself that I can find the light again; that no matter how dark it seems, I can still make my way towards the light. It serves as a reminder to hold onto hope and live.
Jynx Frostbyte 